Today practicing being a big girl means sitting on the patio at s'bucks when I know he will be here with the Friday friend and not care. Not act like I don't care. Actually not care.
It was made somewhat easier since he left within half an hour if me getting here. And that he made the effort to make eye contact and wave when he left.
I am beginning to learn how not to obsess. It is such a reflex it has been trying to move away from that behavior. Not sure why, but running helps. I have 13 miles logged already and seven more tomorrow.
Need to get back to the metta practice.
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