Thursday, December 01, 2016

Quote Thursday

A painful time 
in our life is 
what I call a 
“healing crisis.” 
We are letting go 
of something old 
and opening to 
something new.” 
- Shakti Gawain

Thursday, November 24, 2016

Poetry Thursday, Thanksgiving Edition

Gratitude -- is not the mention 

Of a Tenderness, 

But its still appreciation 

Out of Plumb of Speech.
When the Sea return no Answer 

By the Line and Lead
Proves it there's no Sea, or rather 

A remoter Bed?

~Emily Dickinson

Monday, November 21, 2016

Perspective and Gifts from the Universe

A friend 
is one 
that knows you 
as you are, 
understands where 
you have been, 
accepts what 
you have become, 
and still, 
gently allows 
you to grow.

~Elbert Hubbard
Philosopher, Author, Publisher

[I saw this posted, and mis-attributed to Wm Shakespeare, and had to investigate.  The author's life story, and the number of quotes of his that we use in daily life are amazing. ]  

I had the opportunity to meet Bruno, pictured above, on my short jaunt into Chicago in August.  His life is worthy of a children's book.  Maybe someday I will get around to that one.  His life, and his owners, brought me some perspective at a challenging time.  When I see his little face, I remember how important it is to not judge a book by its cover.  I remember the power of love and how unexpectedly it can come - or maybe that it can come in unexpected packages.

We rarely have control of the gifts the universe will bestow.  The best we can try to do is be receptive when they land on our doorstep.  And, of course, to be thankful.
I am thankful! Still working to incorporate into my life all the gifts I received on that trip to Chicago.

Thursday, November 17, 2016

Poetry Thursday

Love here on earth
Love beyond the grave
There are no roads
My love for you can't pave.
- T. Sachs

Tuesday, November 15, 2016

Happy birthday, sister

 The strands are all there ... 
to the memory, 
nothing is ever lost. 
~Eudora Welty

Monday, November 14, 2016

I got things to say...

...and do, but it is all still percolating.

I am going to just leave this here for you all:

I finally got around to listening to the whole episode that included this awesome song.

This song on repeat got me through the last thirty miles of my nearly 300 miles drive today.

There was a lot of weeping so I needed this strong song to remind me that we are made of resilience.

Come at me bro...

Friday, November 11, 2016

this is all I got

...for now.

I am regrouping and hope to be able to put my words down soon...

oh, and happy veterans' day

Thursday, November 10, 2016

Poetry Thursday, back on track...

Faith is an oasis 
in the heart 
which will never 
be reached 
by the caravan 
of thinking.
~K. Gibran
The Sand and the Foam

Thursday, November 03, 2016

Poetry Thursday sort of...

The pain, their loss, 
it's all I have left of them.
You think the grief 
will make you smaller inside
like your heart will collapse 
in on itself,
but it doesn't.
I feel spaces opening up 
inside of me
like a building with rooms 
I've never explored.
~spoken by Dolores on Westworld
not sure who wrote it for the robot or the character, but I like it.

Para los seres queridos...

We gathered to decorate Sergio's grave on Sunday.
This is before
-- a bag of supplies.
And eager hearts
with food and
energy and
love for Julie and Sergio.
It started shaping up with flowers and decorations.

Julie and I scoured a grocery store for many of Sergio's favorite things.
Alita was particularly intrigued by the process... I kept giving her jobs (and treats).

Alita helped give out paper and pens so we could all write Sergio private notes.
the final product... and closeups of the offerings...

Julie thanked everyone for coming, and Alita, Sara and Kathryn comforted Julie... it was heartbreaking and beautiful.
We burnt the notes as our delivery method.
I included my silent thoughts for all my loved ones who aren't with me anymore.

We miss you so much, Sergio ...

I owe you one...

The leaf of every tree 
brings a message 
from the unseen world. 

every falling leaf 
is a blessing.
~ Rumi

Monday, October 24, 2016

Scenes from my life right now

I keep wanting to write about what's going in my life right now, but then I don't do it.  Not that there is really anything going on ... I haven't applied for more jobs, my current job is giving me less and less hours, I am picking up other gigs on the side, trying to outfit my apartment.
So those are lots of things that are actually happening and it is all my life.

But this is not what is going on for me right now.

A lot of what is going on is being sad, crying, grieving... sometimes to the point of paralysis, but other times just as a release.

I try to keep honoring this process, but I am getting scared about how long it will take ... particularly about how long my savings will allow me to follow the path before I need to just get a job, any job.
I am spending too much time in my space alone ... perhaps too much, maybe just right.

It means most of these pictures are scenes from the doorway of my aparment.

This one is detail on the rain we got a couple of weeks ago... this is the little lemon tree my friend bought me!

[Non sequitur, I want to name it.  I am feeling it is a "him" and the name that always pops in my head is Elroy.  Not sure why, but I haven't really committed to it, yet. Your comments are welcome.]
The view from my apartment is really gorgeous... sunny or cloudy...
 even rainy and with ominous clouds threatening...

And I have been recording the animal visitors...

I guess the good news is that I have been getting out more this past week ... today actually marks day 7 of exercising out of doors ... next picture scenes from my life will reflect that change.

And maybe I will even start writing regularly again ... I can't predict.

Sunday, October 23, 2016

late entry Poetry "Thursday"

Your pain is the breaking of the shell
that encloses your understanding.
Even as the stone of the fruit must break,
that its heart may stand in the sun,
so must you know pain.

--by Khalil Gibran
from THE PROPHET (1923)

Thursday, October 13, 2016

Poetry Thursday

Live life 
as if 
is rigged 
in your favor.
~ Rumi

Monday, October 10, 2016


 I went to the Oakland Museum of California's Black Panther retrospective ...
 Truly wonderful exhibit and also heartbreaking to see that we continue to work on the very same issues.

 I took a few pictures, not very many ...

 these came out ok ..