Thursday, July 28, 2016

almost forgot ... Poetry Thursday

In your wanderings 
among the mountains 
and the desert 
you will always remember 
the depth of her [Spring’s] cool heart. 
And though oftentimes 
you will not know 
for what you long, 
it is indeed for her 
vast and rhythmic peace. 

~ K. Gibran
The Garden of the Prophet

Thursday, July 21, 2016

Poetry Thursday

I will be waiting 
For your silence 
to break 
For your soul 
to shake 
For your love 
to wake.
 ~ Rumi

Thursday, July 14, 2016

late entry

To wander 
in the fields 
of flowers 
pull the thorns 
from your 
own heart.
~ Rumi

Thursday, July 07, 2016

Poetry Thursday

But let there be spaces 
in your togetherness and 
let the winds of the heavens 
dance between you. 
Love one another 
but make not a bond of love, 
let it rather be a moving sea 
between the shores of your souls.
– Kahlil Gibran

Wednesday, July 06, 2016

Table Bluff...and sunset views

 This is the south part of the Humboldt Bay on one side (below) and the Eel River delta meeting the Pacific (top) ... I think I got that right ...if not, switch your view.

Two previous from the top ... and in the car...sorry.

 from sea level...

aren't these skies gorgeous? And the windswept trees... it was all beautiful...

 Couldn't quite get the tree tunnel to come through as it was in person, but squint at it...
As the sun slipped deeper into the ocean, we stopped by another spot .... Salmon something... what follows are from that spot... truly beautiful

Tuesday, July 05, 2016

Fourth on the Arcata Plaza

 Note 1) this is not a giraffe despite the resemblance; 2) it is a pink polka dot, peg-legged pony; and 3) most importantly, bubbles can emanate from that hole.
 arty shot of kinetic koo-tie... I have no idea what it means...
 Ok, this wasn't on the fourth, but it was in Arcata ...and so relaxing!
 I fell in love with the vintage signs ...
 and this vintage firetruck

 front view of #notgiraffe

 I didn't quite catch this one upside down full giggle, but it was priceless, believe me
 obligatory flag shot

 not sure what kind of guard totem this is, but I as charmed.
Olive and her person ... Olive is a ham, and then she showed me where she wanted to be scratched.  Also Olive's person was selling really cool t-shirts.

Monday, July 04, 2016

Emotional independence?

Someone asked me the other day, after I tried to explain where I am in my life right now, how I was still upright.

It didn't really sink in for a bit.

This sign is on one side of the track & the yellow line ...

It wasn't a criticism.

I get so much of that from myself and others, it is hard not to expect anyone's reaction to be that.

She was saying ... goodness, you have so much going on.

I looked at her and didn't know what to say.

I don't remember, in fact, what I said.

But, I remember what she said next, "You look great!"

She is not a friend, well, maybe she is now... but I had just met her in person for the first time and we were about five minutes into our conversation. on the other side; the train runs between. It's the thought that counts?

I forget to give myself credit... too often.

Things are not as I would like them to be... they certainly aren't as I have planned (and planned b, c, d, e, f, and g).

And they haven't been for quite some time.

I forget how long it's been since I have had my own place, short-term and long-term goals that reflect what I desire, or even the vaguest notion of what I desire.

This hurts... large tears roll down my cheeks as I type this.

But, I am upright.  And even though I may not feel like I look great.  I am ok.

I am ok.

I feel overwhelmed every minute of the day with all that I need to get done, should get done, have promised to do... sitting alongside what I need or must do for myself.  These rarely coincide.

But, I am ok... I get up in the morning, I do what I can, sometimes that means that I just cry for a bit before I deal with the tasks at hand.

I don't know what I want next... it is not clear to me.

And so I haven't committed to a city, a job, a place... and that is not a super comfortable place to be.

I don't have a homebase...except my car right now.

But I think I am doing the right thing by taking my time in making all the daunting decisions ahead of me.

Another day ... we'll see what this one brings.

[These photos are scenes from that day when I had the conversation with my new-almost-friend in Solana Beach, CA]

Friday, July 01, 2016

Oops. Poetry Friday

Make peace 
with the universe. 
Take joy in it. 
Every moment, 
a new beauty. 

Thursday, June 30, 2016

From Daily OM...

Sometimes the DailyOm just knows what is going on ... here is one we can all remember... or try to.

When offering comfort to somebody, their only real need is to have you be in the present moment with them.

Sometimes it is difficult to see someone we love struggling, in pain, or hurting. When this happens, we might feel like we need to be proactive and do something to ease their troubles. While others may want our help, it is important to keep in mind that we need to be sensitive to what they truly want in the moment, since it can be all too easy to get carried away and say or do more than is really needed. Allowing ourselves to let go and simply exist in the present with another person may actually provide a greater amount of comfort and support than we could ever imagine.

Perhaps we can think back to a time when we were upset and needed a kind word, hug, or listening ear from someone else. As we remember these times, we might think of the gestures of kindness that were the most healing. It may have been gentle words such as “I care about you,” or the soothing presence of someone holding us and not expecting anything that were the most consoling. When we are able to go back to these times it becomes easier for us to keep in mind that giving advice or saying more than is really necessary is not always reassuring. What is truly comforting for another is not having someone try to fix them or their problems, but to just be there for them. Should we begin to feel the urge arise to offer advice or repair a situation, we can take a few deep breaths, let the impulse pass, and bring our attention back to the present. Even though we may want to do more, we do not have to do anything other than this to be a good friend.

The more we are attuned to what our loved ones are feeling, the more capable we are of truly giving what is best for them in their hour of need. Keeping things simple helps us give the part of ourselves that is capable of the greatest amount of compassion—open ears and an understanding heart. 

printable version here

Wednesday, June 29, 2016


Scenes from a day out with the Tias.
Since it was one of my Tias birthday...and the other Tias just happened to be be in town. I took them to the Chumash casino for the day ... well, we got a late start because I had to work.  And then we stopped in Solvang -- where we had Mexican food at a restaurant called La Sirenita.  I know... ironic, but that's California for you.  And it was super tasty.  They had secret super hot salsa in the back which they shared... and the Tias were pleased.  It was tasty.
After only a few hours at the casino, we went to another restaurant where we decided to eat tapas style.  And everything was awesome.  The restaurant is owned by my sister's former housemate.  The restaurant was packed, so happy he is successful!

After wanting a good dessert, this one hit the spot... flourless chocolate cake which was more like a mousse.  More than tasty!