Someday, I hope, these days won't be so hard.
This day, twenty five years ago, we welcomed Veronica Rose into the world.
I stood by my sister's side and counted (as fast as I could) through her contractions and fed her ice chips when she could rest.
It hurt me to see her in so much pain even though I knew at the end we would have this precious gift.
Now, the pain of not having my sister here to celebrate her daughter's birthday is infinitely more cruel.
Someday, maybe the pain will subside and I can just celebrate the lives of both my beautiful niece and her mother.
Right now, though, it is just so painful.