Friday, September 06, 2013

New Moon and the Stars

From Brezsny:
AQUARIUS (Jan. 20-Feb. 18): Germany's Museum Ostwall displayed a conceptual installation by the artist Martin Kippenberger. Valued at $1.1 million, it was called "When It Starts Dripping from the Ceiling." Part of it was composed of a rubber tub that was painted to appear as if it had once held dirty rainwater. One night while the museum was closed, a new janitor came in to tidy up the premises. While performing her tasks, she scrubbed the rubber tub until it was "clean," thereby damaging the art. Let this be a cautionary tale, Aquarius. It's important for you to appreciate and learn from the messy stuff in your life—even admire its artistry—and not just assume it all needs to be scoured and disinfected.

Yeah, art, messiness, and cleaning it all up or wallowing in it. That about sums up my life right now.

I have stopped saying that I am ok or fine. I realize that most people who ask do not really want to know, but practicing saying that I am not ok helps me to come to grips with just that fact.

I don't need to pretend to be ok... it doesn't serve me to seem totally ok and over it ... not that anyone owes me any special treatment.  Just that I am not ok, and I don't know when I will be.

Most days I am hanging in, by a thread, but I am upright and moving forward, one step at a time.  
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NM sunset
For the new moon, I smudge, and I set my intentions for those aspects of life I want to call into my life.

This time around and I went full force, smudge, candles and written intentions to be burned in the darkness of the new moon [I usually reserve burning for the full moon intentions of letting go...].

May you set your intentions for the new aspects to visit you in this new month of your life. 

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