raw - draft

----------in my experience, drafts never get finished ... so, instead of trying to finish this, I am jut going to post it. Raw as it is -------------------------------------------------------------------from 5/16/10

The stress of the last week was like a protective covering in a very odd way.

I should not be surprised. This is not new for me... it is something that requires care. When I am busy, I am not feeling; I am rarely emotionally present. It wasn't that complete this time, as I recall the tears flowing as I wrote my papers.

I wish I could have made all my runs last week. I have been using the physical release as a surrogate for emotional release.