ridiculousness

it's a plague

i would like to say i don't know how to treat it

but that would be a lie

i know exactly what to do and what not to do

and i overwhelmingly choose what not to do

or stasis

neither of which is productive in the least

and then i want to complain

but i can't

it's a vicious cycle that i put into motion even feed

courage
strength
perspective
reality check
purpose

all things i need ... not that i lack

just i forgot i possess what i need or refuse to employ