Tuesday, August 07, 2012

More on Education

Here is what is wrong with "policy" in education that focuses on money and ignores the underlying issues.  This is an example of throwing money at a problem without putting in enough thought.

The fact is that there may be some poor students who need help paying for the AP tests.  But there are not likely to be many of them.  Fee waivers from ETS used to pay for up to two tests for students.

I used them without having to prove that I was indeed financially needy.  But let me put this into perspective.  The counselor asked me to use them ... even though I had not taken AP courses ... even though there was only one AP course taught in my high school: AP Spanish Language.  [I didn't take the course only because I had just spent a year in Spain doing all my work in Spanish.]  I did take AP Spanish Lang and European History.  I scored a 5 and a 3 ... without stepping foot into a course.

But what use would these waivers be for the majority of students in my high school?  What counselor might approach those students, with no access to AP courses, and say, here, you can take a test for something you are utterly not prepared in for a reduced cost?

I hope that there are students out there who are able to make use of this benevolence, but I wonder just how many there are.

And where is the money and the incentive to offer those poor students the courses to prepare them for such a test? And where is the pressure to offer these students just plain old college prep courses?

I am righteously bitter about this issue ... and as a taxpayer, you should be, too.  It is a terrible idea -- and the opposition will use its failure to help poor students get college credit (for these will be underused) as the rationale for not funding other initiatives that might.
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Here's another example:
In Texas, they are rightly working on issues of college readiness.  However, rather than read the research on the issue, and tap into the folks in their own state that have already spent enormous energy and time on the problem, they are contracting with a company to create a TEST.

In the first few paragraphs, the reporter makes the point that isolating "college readiness" is one of the key challenges.  Even though this is true, they are contracting for a test... what will they test? How do we know that another test by the College Board is what will fill the void?  I am truly skeptical about the process and disappointed about the decision to spend money in this way.  Ugh.

On the other hand, though, I am pleased that they are planning to implement this TEST as the only placement test taken by all students across institutions across the state.  That is certainly a step in the right direction, but will this test be useful in all states, or is it somehow going to be Texas specific.  If so, then we are right back where we started -- testing companies using our issues in education as money makers rather than actually helping us get somewhere... Ugh, again.
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Then, again, there are useful ways to use money, and this article demonstrates a more effective way to get students through third grade than just holding them back [so you can look like you're tough ... scary how ed policy looks a lot like crime policy when Republicans get their hands on it -- I am not holding back]

Study: K 3 Plus Boosts Student Scores


Hailey Heinz / Journal Staff Writer
Published: 8/6/2012

From left, Damian Chavez, Sadie Zamora and Erick Martinez work as a team to answer math questions. The Kirtland Elementary students competed to be the first team to correctly answer questions projected on the board. (Adolphe Pierre Louis/Journal)
A program that extends the school year for low income students is getting positive results, and researchers say it could be a cost effective alternative to mandatory retention policies advocated by Gov. Susana Martinez.
A report by the Legislative Finance Committee's research staff examined data on about 26,000 New Mexico students who finished third grade in 2011. They looked at a number of questions related to early literacy, and one key finding was that students enrolled in the "K 3 Plus" program had higher test scores in reading, writing and math than students with similar demographics who were not enrolled. They also found positive results for students who took state funded preschool.
The K 3 Plus program gives parents of kindergartners through third graders the option of signing up their kids for an extra five weeks of classes before school starts.
At the same time, researchers found that only 12 percent of students who were held back at the end of third grade moved up to the "proficient" level during their second year of third grade.
State education chief Hanna Skandera has advocated for a law that would require retention of third graders who had not learned to read. Lawmakers refused to pass such a law in the past two sessions.
Skandera said the LFC report is "incomplete," since it only examined the effectiveness of retention the way New Mexico currently does it. The bills she has advocated would require early intervention, to try to avoid holding students back.
"I 100 percent agree that retention as we do it now has not been successful," Skandera said. "I agree the research is mixed on 'does retention work?' Retention by itself is not a solution."
She said the LFC report fails to look at the interventions that are built into a good retention program.
The report describes K 3 Plus and preschool as programs that make a difference in student performance, and describes retention as having "mixed" results.
This summer, K 3 Plus is offered at 75 schools in 20 districts across the state, serving about 9,300 students. To be eligible, at least 85 percent of a school's population must qualify for free or reduced price lunch, which is a measure of poverty.
The K 3 Plus portion of the LFC report was based on research at Utah State University, which examined data on New Mexico's program to see if it should be replicated elsewhere.
Kirtland Elementary School in Albuquerque has offered K 3 Plus since the program was launched in 2007. Alene Hardin, who has been teaching second grade for 20 years, is in her fifth year of teaching K 3 Plus.
"Personally, I think it's money well spent, because most of these kids would be doing nothing," Hardin said. She said many of her students get little enrichment over the summer, and starting the school year early helps them get ready for second grade curriculum.
"It keeps them from regressing so far," she said. "They're much more ready to start second grade."
Wednesday was the last day of K 3 Plus at Kirtland. Students started classes June 27 and have a break before school starts Aug. 13.
In Hardin's class Wednesday, students were divided into teams and competed to quickly and accurately answer math problems that dealt with telling time, adding the values of different coins and identifying number patterns.
The Utah State report found that students who had at least one year of K 3 Plus got significantly better scores on the state Standards Based Assessment than similar students who were not in the program. They also found that students who had two years of K 3 Plus outscored those with just one year.
The LFC report also looked at the effects of preschool and found that it makes a significant difference in New Mexico. Among the third graders included in the study, those who had attended New Mexico Pre K had test scores that were essentially identical to the scores of non Pre K students. That is remarkable, according to the report, because more of the students enrolled in Pre K are low income, Hispanic and learning English than in the overall third grade population.
The report said a student could attend Pre K and four years of K 3 Plus for a cost to the state of about $7,000, which is roughly the cost of sending a student through third grade a second time. The report suggests this might be a better use of the money, since the intervention programs show proven results, while retention has a spottier record.
In the current budget year, the state appropriated $19.2 million directly to preschool programs, and roughly another $41 million flowed through the state funding formula for school districts to provide services to 3 and 4 year old students with special needs. The federal government also spent about $57 million on Head Start in New Mexico, bringing total preschool spending in New Mexico to about $117 million.
For K 3 Plus, the state budgeted $11 million this year, enough to cover costs for up to 9,600 students.
The LFC report recommends the PED increase oversight of K 3 Plus, to make sure the program's quality is consistent statewide. It also recommends better coordination, so more students get the full benefits of preschool and an extended school year.
This article appeared on page A1 of the Albuquerque Journal

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One last article on education in NM:
It turns out that I am not the only one that thinks that the "grading" system NM is using for its AYP waiver is confusing...

Group: Grading System Too Complex


Hailey Heinz / Journal Staff Writer
Published: Jul 31, 2012
A nonpartisan group of scientists and mathematicians says the state's new A F school grading system is too complex for most people to understand, including principals and superintendents.
The group also believes the system adds elements together that aren't compatible, and that the formula's sensitivity to small changes results in unreasonable grade changes from one year to the next.
State education chief Hanna Skandera said the system must be complicated to capture all the elements that make a quality school. She also said her department will release a grade calculator application, which will allow schools to see how fluctuations in test scores translate to letter grades.
The group, called the Coalition for Excellence in Science and Math Education, is a nonprofit with several hundred members. It has been active in New Mexico since 1997, and its mission is to "improve science education and science literacy for all citizens," according to its website.
M. Kim Johnson, past president and an author of the report, said Rep. Rick Miera, D Albuquerque, asked the group to examine the A F school grading system and try to replicate it. Johnson said the group has testified before the Legislative Education Study Committee in the past and did so recently to present its findings.
The group said it was not able to replicate the school grades but added that it did not have all of the Public Education Department's original data.
Those findings were cited by Democrats in the Legislature, who sent out a news release last week expressing "deep concern" over the credibility of the A F grades. Those quoted in the news release included Sen. Linda Lopez, D Albuquerque; Sen. Howie Morales, D Silver City; and Miera.
"The methodology and process of the reform models are severely flawed, with no scientific or educational findings proving their worth," Lopez said in the release.
The release urged the PED to adopt the group's recommendations, which include simplifying and seeking an independent review of the formula and providing grading data and software to districts.
Johnson, a retired physicist, said the coalition began its work by looking at the technical manual the PED provided to districts.
"We looked at it, and said 'This a big complex mess.' I mean in terms of being able to understand it. It lacked the definition you expect to see in a manual."
Johnson emphasized that just because his group could not replicate the scores doesn't mean it can't be done. But he thinks it does mean the formula is too complex to be very useful.
"We're not talking about a bunch of schmucks here who haven't seen this stuff before," he said. "We think it's all probably aboveboard, but we don't think the average person, school principal or superintendent could conceivably follow it."
Skandera said the calculator application, expected to be released at the end of September, should help make the grades more useful to principals. The application will allow principals to see how test score changes affect their grades.
For example, if a principal wanted to see how the grade would be affected by a two point increase in the average scores of low performing students, she could put that in the calculator for an answer.
"I think that will be a real step toward equipping our principals in a more meaningful way," Skandera said.
She said the formula is complicated, in large part because people around the state wanted a school grade that would capture all the nuances of school quality, and would control for demographic differences such as poverty.
"I think it's really important that we remember, everyone asked for a complete picture. And that's exactly what we delivered: a robust view of what's happening in our schools, with multiple measures," Skandera said.
She said she has heard educators debate the system.
"I've heard lots of educators going back and forth, saying, 'Until I know how it's calculated, I can't improve my letter grade.' And someone else will say, 'I know exactly what I need to do.' ... You can create a bogeyman out of this word 'complication.' "
She also said some of the people criticizing the system's complexity are the same ones who requested nuance. She said Miera, for example, was adamant about including five and six year graduation rates in the calculation. She said that makes it more complicated.
The coalition's report also questioned whether it is mathematically appropriate to add different measures together. Specifically, the A F grades use simple measures of how many students are scoring at the "proficient" level, which are added to measures of how much students are improving. The "improvement" scores control for demographic factors, like poverty.
The coalition contends it is mathematically inappropriate to add these measures together. According to the report, such addition is "something like adding oranges and cows to derive pickup trucks. The result is not obviously meaningful."
Johnson said each measure serves a separate purpose, and that it makes sense to calculate them both. But he said adding them together results in a measure that reflects neither growth, nor current standing. Doing so also is part of the reason for dramatic changes in grades.
Those changes have come under scrutiny, as some school grades went from "B" to "F," and vice versa, between preliminary January grades and final July grades.
"Schools don't do that in one year. It doesn't happen that way," Johnson said. "And so a lot of that is an artifact of adding things together that really don't make sense to add together."
Johnson said he does not think the grading system should be dumbed down to a basic level, but does think it could be simplified without losing its meaning.
"That still may require that there's math in there that's complex, but make that executable -- something that people can put on their computer and run, especially superintendents and principals," he said.
This article appeared on page C1 of the Albuquerque Journal

Monday, August 06, 2012

Education in NM

First a little update on a previous link:

I am not the only one wondering if the AYP waivers are one way to raise the white flag of defeat; the NY Times reporter wondered specifically "some states have proposed reforms aimed at spurring schools and teachers to improve student performance, others may be introducing weaker measures of accountability."

And, if that wondering were not enough to make us question the efficacy and usefulness of NCLB, how about this story from San Mateo, CA.  Some immigrant students from Asian countries believe they are being used in a ponzi like scheme for test scores.  
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So far, all I really know about NM and the state of K-12 education is what I deduce from sitting in on a few courses for teachers, listening to teachers talk about the system, the reports on the lack of student achievement and the news coverage.

I preface with all the other forms of information because simply reading the news coverage will never give us the kind of information that we could call definitive.

Nonetheless, I post here some information about the state of education in NM according to the news coverage with particular interest to teachers and how they might be evaluated.

Remember this is part of the waiver agreement made with the feds.

I have to post them in their entirety because the AP links die and the ABQ Journal doesn't provide access to their content if you are not a subscriber. So, bear with me.

APS Pilot Program Unveils Preliminary Findings


Hailey Heinz / Journal Staff Writer
Published: August 1, 2012 
Albuquerque Public Schools has released initial results of its teacher evaluation system, saying it's more nuanced and fairer than the state's controversial proposal.
"This pilot affirms my belief that a well rounded system with multiple measures will improve teacher evaluation," said Ellen Bernstein, Albuquerque Teachers Federation president. The ATF was a key partner in creating the pilot, which was done last school year at four schools that receive federal money for low performing schools. That money was used to pay for the pilot at Highland, Rio Grande and West Mesa high schools and Ernie Pyle Middle School.
Ninety three teachers volunteered for the pilot, which evaluated their performance based on whether students met learning goals their teachers set for them, how much their test scores improved, a student perception survey and classroom observations.
Many of those elements are also in the state proposal.
Public Education Department spokesman Larry Behrens said the state system is a work in progress, and the PED is interested in what APS learned from its pilot. The state system will be tried out by pilot schools this year.
"Just like the 50 schools that are signed on as pilots statewide, we expect a lot of good information to come forth in the next year," Behrens said in a written statement. "We would welcome a presentation on the APS program and would be glad to incorporate aspects of it that best serve our students. We are hopeful they can present their results soon."
APS found that:
-Students taught by teachers in the pilot improved their test scores more than those taught by teachers who did not volunteer.
-Teachers who scored well during classroom observations saw higher student test score improvement, indicating the observations were a valid measure of teacher quality.
-Results of a lengthy student survey also tracked with test score performance. The survey had 34 questions, which Bernstein said gave a more complete measure than the state's 10 question version.
-Teachers needed more guidance on how to set and measure student learning goals. APS Chief Academic Officer Linda Sink said this aspect of the evaluation system needs improvement.
After two failed attempts to get lawmakers to revamp teacher evaluation, state education chief Hanna Skandera is using administrative rule to create a new system. That rule is in draft form, and the system will be used in pilot schools this school year. It will go statewide next school year.
Participants in the APS pilot were eligible for pay bonuses, depending on their performance. The district has not yet said how much bonus money was paid out, but said earlier it would depend on how many people signed up. It said then the maximum possible would be $7,500 per employee.
While a summary of the pilot findings has been released, the full report is not ready. It will be presented to the school board in coming weeks.
On the surface, the system sounds a lot like the one proposed by the PED, which would evaluate teachers based on student test score improvement, classroom observations and other measures, to be determined by districts.
Both the APS and PED pilots rely on so called "value added" measures, which use statistics to control for student characteristics like poverty or special needs. The idea is to measure how much a student's score improved during the year, controlling for factors outside the teacher's control.
Although both models use such controls, it is unclear whether the formulas would be the same. The APS pilot used a model with separate variables for each student characteristic.
While the PED has not decided on a formula, its A F school grading system used a formula with just one factor: the student's prior test score. The idea is that all a student's characteristics are reflected in that score. So if the student is a male, Hispanic special education student, all that information is reflected in the prior score and doesn't need to be controlled for again.
These technicalities are important, because APS contends its formula is fairer to teachers of low income students. Behrens said the PED's formula will be decided with comments from an advisory panel of teachers, administrators and others over the next year.
Sink said some elements of the APS evaluations worked well, and others need improvement. Specifically, she said the district got good results with its classroom observations, in which principals were given guidelines on how to look for quality teaching. The guidelines are a hybrid of national research and the nine teaching abilities required by state law.
Sink said teachers and principals were happy with the guidelines, which she said could be a statewide model.
Teachers were observed at least three times during the year, and the observations were 30 45 minutes long.
"Teachers do want to have people come into their classroom, give them support and give them the chance to show what they're doing so they can get better at their craft. They really appreciated having longer observations and having more," Sink said.
"We say that principals and administrators are busy, but I do think what we also should be saying is we need to reprioritize their 'busyness' and what they do during their day. This could be, and I think is, the most important thing they can do."
This article appeared on page A1 of the Albuquerque Journal
 Think about these "results" compared to the other article posted about a charter school.  Be skeptical and ask questions.

Charter School Touts Eval Success


Hailey Heinz / Journal Staff Writer
Published: August 1, 2012 
The Albuquerque Institute of Math and Science is embarking on its third year of evaluating teachers and determining their raises based on a combination of student test score growth, classroom observations and other measures. AIMS is a charter school, which has historically done well on standardized tests and received one of the highest grades in New Mexico under the new school grading system. Kathy Sandoval, the principal of AIMS, served on a task force last summer that made recommendations for a state teacher evaluation system. State education chief Hanna Skandera is currently working to create a new teacher evaluation system through administrative rule. That rule is in draft form and will be piloted this year in about 50 schools. It will go statewide in fall 2013. At a public hearing on the rule earlier this month, Sandoval testified that the system has worked well at her school. "I can tell you right now that nobody at my school has left the school because of the evaluation tool. Nobody has had a reduction in pay, nobody has been fired," she said at the hearing. "I have, however, been able to reward teachers that have been absolutely, highly effective in the classroom. I have also been able to fine tune and pinpoint professional development that needs to be made with teachers that are perhaps struggling." The system at AIMS is heavily based on how much student test scores improve and does not control for student characteristics like poverty and race. One quarter of AIMS teacher evaluations are based on how much their students improve on the state Standards Based Assessment. Teachers whose subjects are not tested on the SBA must use another test, approved by Sandoval. Another quarter is based on how much the school's test scores improve overall. Sandoval said this is because every teacher is part of the overall school climate and contributes to the whole school's growth. Sandoval initially gave the SBA less weight because teachers were uneasy about it, but increased it, in part because teachers were getting good test score results and wanted recognition for that progress. Another quarter of an AIMS evaluation is based on classroom observations. Teachers are evaluated four times per year: Once by Sandoval, once by the assistant principal, once by an independent contractor and once by a colleague who has reached the third tier of the state licensure system. The last quarter is based on a student survey, and Sandoval's evaluation of the teacher's professionalism, willingness to take on extra tasks for the school and how diligently the teacher follows policies and procedures. Sandoval said she believes most teachers would support the system if they were evaluated under it one time. She also cautioned that as a principal, it takes a lot of time and effort. "It is incredibly time consuming," she said. "But you know what: Where am I most useful? Watching in the classroom and trying to improve student instruction or having my butt in a chair?"
This article appeared on page A6 of the Albuquerque Journal

Friday, August 03, 2012

Ugh...

Some days are harder than others ... and some are just longer.

I am trying to work up to having the energy to be productive.  I am hoping for the day when I don't have to take a nap in the middle of the day.

I don't know if this is payback for wanting to be self sufficient ... I recognize this is a dramatic and ridiculous statement. 

I get it.  I do.

Life happens.

The trick is to bob up and down with the waves, right?

I have been doing that, but it feels like I am drowning anyway.

Ugh.

There has to be a way to take care of myself that doesn't seem so utterly self indulgent -- that doesn't make me feel like I am grasping.

Maybe I just need to practice being in the hard moments.

I am just feeling frustrated, tired and confused...

Thursday, August 02, 2012

Quote Thursday


I was searching for a quote for my sister's birthday present ... this one didn't make it because it is too long to fit around the framed picture, but I thought I could share it here.

i beg you...to have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a very foreign language. do not search for the answers, which could not be given you now, because you would not be able to live them. and the point is, to live everything. live the questions now. perhaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer.
-rilke 

 [Photo credits: me, fancy camera, on the train, California Coast ... for fun]

Wednesday, August 01, 2012

Recalucating Route

As a draft sitting there holding space, this was going to be a post about how on the trip we ended up in Naples rather than spending the day seeing sights in Rome.  Someday, I may tell you more about it.

Then, after I named the post, I would see it and think I should tell you, instead, about some musing a friend and I did about the voice in the GPS units in cars.  This is a story I would like to tell you someday ... just not today.

And then, it became a post about why I was only going to Oakland on a plane instead of the lovely driving trip I had planned for late June/early July.  It turned out I was just never ready to share all the reasons that went into that decision. And it became a non-story.

That's a lot of preamble.  Welcome to my world.

What is left is to say that there has been a lot of route recalculation of late ... and I predict some more before too long.

I am trying, during this retrograde of Mercury, to follow the advice of the astrologers: stay flexible.  Make plans (read: recalculate route), but stay open to changing any and all plans. 

I like this idea much more than feeling that all of the M. retrograde time as "what can go wrong will go wrong" -- that is extreme... but sometimes true. However, as a nemesis of mine has taken pains to say as a rebuttal to me in public (no, I am not at all bitter), it is easier to deal with a potentially trying time by not expecting the worst.  That is not exactly what she said, but let's just say that is what she meant, as a sign of charity.

So, for these last seven days or so of M's retrograde, let's continue to remain flexible, recalculating as necessary ... going with the flow when it doesn't threaten our lives, and pulling to the side of the road as needed.

May all being be at ease.
[photo credits: me, fancy camera; mummified frog remains that lived outside my door after friend rescued it from ex's front yard ... yeah, Mercury is in retrograde, so this picture makes sense to someone]

Tuesday, July 31, 2012

Uninspired inspiration

While I was in California, I didn't get to go to Southern California.

I had been looking forward to driving through the desert and on through Los Angeles, maybe even see that big rock... as well as the ocean.

I kept reading the Los Angeles Times (online -- on the little guy) and was rewarded with this gem.

I hope you enjoy it.
[Photo credits: me, fancy camera, on the train leaving SoCal]

Friday, July 27, 2012

USA: uninsured (and underinsured) states of america?

As I've read about the recovery of several of those shot in Aurora, I noted that they lacked insurance.  Not surprisingly, their friends and families were worried about how they would pay for the life saving care they are currently receiving as well as the long term care some may need.

None of this has addressed the long term mental health care that all of those who were in the theater at the time of the attack are likely to require.

I was wondering when some journalist would pick up on the circumstance -- and take the opportunity to talk about our health care problems.

Instead, some of the hospitals themselves noted that over $2 million raised by donation for the patients' care would be insufficient to cover the bills (particularly the long term care).

While I certainly applaud the generosity of all involved, we are missing an important opportunity to have frank conversations about health care -- and how the current plan (which the House has repealed no less than three times) would address these issues -- either fully or in part.

We really need to get real about just how many people don't have insurance ... sure, they don't think they need it because they are young and healthy -- but that does not account for accidents and tragedies such as these.

Thursday, July 26, 2012

Poetry Thursday - an old favorite

Out beyond ideas of wrong-doing and right-doing,
There is a field. I'll meet you there.
When the soul lies down in that grass,
the world is too full to talk about.
Ideas, language, even the phrase each other
doesn't make any sense.
-Rumi

Wednesday, July 25, 2012

June OmGems

June turned out to be more on the road than I had expected ... or just off the blog, I guess.

And July is in full swing ... that is to say, more than half over -- how does that even happen??

As I ease my way back into writing -- anywhere -- I am trying to put some time back into the blog ... working up, I hope to sharing some of what I have been going through for the past six months.
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June was a good month for the DailyOm ... and I share with you some of the ones that I felt I couldn't live without (not making too much progress with my grasping issues yet).  That is to say, the ones I saved in my OmGems folder.

I have picked out a quote I enjoyed for each, but there is a link to the printable version for each as well.

June 1 - Recognizing Happiness
"We can examine how joy feels in our bodies and what thoughts run through our minds in times of bliss. ... Once we know what it feels like and can identify some of the triggers and are aware of our actions, we can recreate that happiness when we are feeling low."
June 4 - Prayer and Meditation
"When we meditate, we cease movement and allow the activity of our minds and hearts to go on without us in a sense. Eventually, we fall into a deep silence, a place that underlies all the noise and fray of daily human existence. In this place, it becomes possible for us to hear the universe as it speaks for itself, responds to our questions, or sits with us in its silent way."
June 7 - Life Packaging
"It is as if our different lives are in essence the same gift, wrapped in an infinite variety of containers, wrapping paper, ribbons, and bows. Everybody experiences loss, grief, happiness, excitement, anger, and fear. ... Even as it appears that some people have it easy while others are in a continual state of struggle, the truth is that we are all learning, and it is very difficult to tell, when looking only at the exterior of a person, what’s going on inside. 
This is one of the many things that can be so valuable about cultivating relationships with people from all walks of life."
June 8 - Sitting with our Sadness
"The last thing most of us want to hear or think about when we are dealing with profound feelings of sadness is that deep learning can be found in this place. In the midst of our pain, we often feel picked on by life, or overwhelmed by the enormity of some loss, or simply too exhausted to try and examine the situation. We may feel far too disappointed and angry to look for anything resembling a bright side to our suffering. Still, somewhere in our hearts, we know that we will eventually emerge from the depths into the light of greater awareness. Remembering this truth, no matter how elusive it seems, can help."
June 15 - Giving Away Power
"To some degree, giving our energy to other people is simply part of the social contract, and we feel that we have to do it in order to survive. It is possible to exchange energy in a way that preserves our inner integrity and stability. This begins in a small way: by listening to the voice that continues to let us know what we want, no matter how many times we override its messages."
June  19 - Beyond Reacting
"...there is much to be said for teaching ourselves to remember to pause and take a deep breath before we respond to the shocks and insults that can come our way in life. ... Some situations require a fairly immediate response, but even just a moment of grounding ourselves before we do so can help enormously."
June 22 - Saying Yes to the Universe
"The hardest thing about saying yes to the universe is that it means accepting everything life puts in front of us. ... We may be afraid that if we say yes to the things we don’t like, we will be stuck with them forever, but really, it is only through acknowledging the existence of what’s not working for us that we can begin the process of change. So saying yes doesn’t mean indiscriminately accepting things that don’t work for us. It means conversing with the universe, and starting the conversation with a very powerful word—yes."
June 26 - Let it Roll of Our Back
"One of the most difficult challenges in life is learning not to take things to heart and hold on to it. Especially when we’re younger, or if we’re very sensitive, we take so much of what comes our way to heart. This can be overwhelming and unproductive if it throws us off balance on a regular basis. When we are feeling criticized or attacked from all directions, it becomes very difficult for us to recover ourselves so that we can continue to speak and act our truth. This is when we would do well to remember the old saying about letting certain things roll off us, like water off a duck’s back."
On this topic, I also read this book with a precocious 2 1/2 year old ... and was bowled over.  There was one "short" specifically on the subject of not carrying around more grief and unhappiness than we need.  Between Stillwell the Panda and my pops, this seems to be a pretty universal theme.  In any case, I think all small (and not so small) children should read it.  I might have to add it to my collection ... I am rebuilding it after all. [Here's something about the author.]

June 27 - Going through a Phase
"We are all almost always in the process of learning something new, developing an underused ability or talent, or toning down an overused one. ... Understanding what’s happening is a useful tool that helps us to be patient with the process. In the end, the pendulum settles comfortably in the center, restoring balance inside and out."
[Photo credits:  Me, fancy camera, April 2012 (I think); outskirts of Gallup, towards Church Rock]

Tuesday, July 24, 2012

Rating NCLB?

[Beware parenthetical asides...]

I have been puzzling (along with some of the local newspaper reporters) on how to understand New Mexico's new "grading" system for K-12 schools.  Besides being one of the tenets of the governor and her education adviser (she was never confirmed by the legislature -- so, even though I am sure she is drawing a tidy sum, she is really only an adviser), this new system is also part of the waiver for NCLB accountability.

I am wondering, beyond trying to understand how AYP and grades A-F (no E) are equivalent or not, how so many waivers can equal success for NCLB.  And now there are 7 more waivers (to add to the already approved 26).  So, there are, so far, 33 out of 50 states that have renegotiated their accountability contracts with the feds.  How many do we need to prove that NCLB is a failure -- at least in terms of accountability?  We were already at half the states, and now we are nearly to 75% (officially at 66% -- as in 2/3). 

There are many parts of NCLB that have engendered changes in our K-12 system that I cannot think are improvements.

I had only held on to the hope that somehow there would be some truth to the fact that accountability would help to close the achievement gap.

As we give up accountability -- move again to hide and otherwise obfuscate how the subgroups are fairing compared to their peers -- I wonder what good has come from NCLB?  When will we give up this policy/law and begin to rebuild?

Monday, July 23, 2012

Kissing

One of the things that I have been noting lately (perhaps, again) is how we lavish babies and small children with kisses.

If you watch a toddler being kissed and hugged and wrestled, you will see those kids play at pulling away, but really they are soaking up love, affection, acceptance, connection...

This is beautiful. So why do we stop doing this?

I know you might say it seems inappropriate at some point, or that kids eventually will put their feet down - but I disagree.

Kisses (love, acceptance, intrinsic value) are always appropriate, in my opinion. The older kids get the more they need to know we love then

When I look at the pain that sends people out in the world to hate, hurt and maim, I know that we give up on love -- on lavishing it on those we care about as well as strangers -- too soon.



May all those hurt by pain find strength and courage and health.

Sunday, July 22, 2012

gratuitous...

I shop at vitacost.com because they offer the best prices on the shampoo/deep conditioner I use (Giovanni) and on the topical pain reliever I need whenever I spend too much time on the computer: topricin. [You can check the price differential ... I haven't found a better deal.]  I keep a jar on my nightstand and one in my travel bag. 

If you think that you might like to shop at vitacost.com, please use this link as I will receive credit for you linking through this one.

Saturday, July 21, 2012

UPDATED: Where Our Attention Should Rest

I woke Friday morning early so that I would be ready for my 6:30am shift ... and in my lazy waking moments, I heard about a shooting.

The news continued all day -- the worst day for me, because I am glued to media as I work.  I was thankful that I don't have cable so that I wouldn't be tempted to see the "news" channels talking incessantly -- not unlike the day they watched the boats and hoped for a flyover for the queen's jubilee.

I was particularly saddened to hear "experts" speak convincingly about how the motivation for this kind of senseless violence was certainly the attention -- the notoriety -- exactly what he was getting.  Seemingly this is the kind of attention he has never received in his life ... well, he is certainly in the limelight.  Then there were the thoughts that perhaps others would copy his actions also for attention -- but that didn't stop them from the speculation they were calling "reporting."

Meanwhile, I feel the best way to demonstrate that this kind of attention is not the best way to get noticed would be to spend more time talking about the pain caused -- perhaps highlight that thelives lost were of value rather than spend time talking about the value of the heinous acts.

I cannot say that I was pleased, however, to hear Colorado's governor say of the suspect, that he was one of those "people that are aberrations of nature..."  Perhaps, but this kind of speculation is likewise unnecessary and unproductive.  There were grieving families, and people waiting to hear about the fate of their children, brothers, sisters, friends, fathers, mothers...

Finally, we have some news on those whose lives were senselessly ended Friday morning (these are not in any particular order):

Jessica Ghawi "Redfield" -- whose story became the surrogate for all victims because of the ease with which the news people could find info on social networks about this young woman.

Jesse Childress -- an airman originally from the Los Angeles area did not survive the attack.

Matthew McQuinn -- died protecting his girlfriend.  The authorities are waiting to confirm his death until fingerprints arrive.

Micayla Medek -- 23-year-old died in the the theater though her friends escaped. May she live in their hearts.

Alexander "AJ" Boik -- an 18-year-old movie goer that just graduated from high school and was planning to attend Art School also did not survive the attack.  He aspired to be an art teacher.  We could have used his enthusiasm in the classroom.

Alex Sullivan -- unfortunately we watched as his father agonizingly searched for news about his son who was celebrating his 27th birthday at this movie.  Tomorrow would have been his first wedding anniversary. 


John Larimer -- another serviceman whose family will have to claim his body from a non-combat war zone. 

Alex Teves -- this 24-year-old recently received his master's degree in counseling ... we could have used his expertise today.  May he rest in peace.

Veronica Moser -- there are really no words to encapsulate the pain and agony caused by the loss of this six-year-old.  I am sending my most healing thoughts to her mother -- it would be exceedingly cruel for both of them to lose their lives in this mess.

Rebecca Wingo -- I don't envy her father who has to explain to his two grand daughters that their mother was murdered at the movies. 

Gordon Cowden -- the only information I found about him was that he was 51, making him the oldest victim.

Jon Blunk -- also died while trying to shield his companion.  There are no other details right now about his life, but I hope that we will learn more about him so that we can celebrate his living instead of just mourning his death.

May they all rest in peace. May their families and friends find strength and solace in their loving memories.

Thursday, July 19, 2012

Quote Thursday -- More O'Keefe






All the earth colors of the painters' palette are out there in the many miles of bad lands.  The light Naples yellow through the ochres -- orange and red and purple earth -- even the soft earth greens.  You have no association with those hills -- our waste land -- I think our most beautiful country -- you may not have seen it, so you want me always to paint flowers.
Georgia O'Keefe, 1945

Friday, July 13, 2012

Silver Lining Round Up

You want to read these:
super sweet story about how a grown man became the super hero he dreamed of as a child; or how bikes changed his life; or ... it's all that and more

another awesome story about a family coming together after a tragedy -- and it includes HEALTHY CHOICES!!

Love endures through the classifieds.  Yeah... better than craigslist by a lot.

I am not sure that the author of this piece considered it a silver lining, but I saw stars...

Thursday, July 12, 2012

Poetry Thursday - friendship

An old favorite, still as true today as the first time I found it, and no doubt, when C. S. Lewis wrote it:


Friendship is unnecessary, like philosophy, like art... It has no survival value; rather it is one of those things that give value to survival.

Monday, July 09, 2012

Favorite Characters, Part 2

I admit that watching The Mentalist is a guilty pleasure ... and one that I have to plan for as I cannot watch it online (though I recently discovered there are a few full episodes on TNT online).  And there is no denying that it was Simon Baker that brought me to the show.  His character, Patrick Jane, is entertaining enough -- and moderately sympathetic, particularly when they show him sleeping on the mattress beneath the Red John signature where presumably Jane found his dead wife and child.

But, I find the story lines tedious and rather unbelievable ... and that's not to say that most of the police shows are believable -- they are all patently unbelievable, given that for the most part they can sew up any investigation in about 40 minutes -- with time for glib remarks, love lives, families, and other drama.  This show, however, verges on the low budget side when it comes to believability.

As I have watched more episodes, I realize that it is not Baker (Jane) that I come back for but Kimball Cho, played by Tim Kang.  He is a truly delightful character, particularly because you get so little about and from him in any given episode.  He is so reserved, you could hardly name what he wears except for that you can actually see it.

But in the rare moments of spontaneity, you see glimpses of Cho's soul, and it can bring you back each time, hoping for more.

His character is certainly what brings me back -- and takes me online looking for episodes.

Here's a clip ... not necessarily the most representative, but you might get the idea (both of his character and the not so awesome features of the show - detailed above):

Thursday, July 05, 2012

Poetry Thursday - our country and dreams

This is a long one ... I thought about just putting in a few of the lines, but they are all worth it. So I am honoring Langston Hughes by posting his poem, Let America Be America Again.

Happy 4th of July... and may we someday live up to the dream.

[Here is another Hughes gem that would also be appropriate; and another.]
[And in the spirit of hope, see this movie... and dream of a better country.]

Let America Be America Again

by Langston Hughes
Let America be America again.
Let it be the dream it used to be.
Let it be the pioneer on the plain
Seeking a home where he himself is free.

(America never was America to me.)

Let America be the dream the dreamers dreamed--
Let it be that great strong land of love
Where never kings connive nor tyrants scheme
That any man be crushed by one above.

(It never was America to me.)

O, let my land be a land where Liberty
Is crowned with no false patriotic wreath,
But opportunity is real, and life is free,
Equality is in the air we breathe.

(There's never been equality for me,
Nor freedom in this "homeland of the free.")

Say, who are you that mumbles in the dark? 
And who are you that draws your veil across the stars?

I am the poor white, fooled and pushed apart,
I am the Negro bearing slavery's scars.
I am the red man driven from the land,
I am the immigrant clutching the hope I seek--
And finding only the same old stupid plan
Of dog eat dog, of mighty crush the weak.

I am the young man, full of strength and hope,
Tangled in that ancient endless chain
Of profit, power, gain, of grab the land!
Of grab the gold! Of grab the ways of satisfying need!
Of work the men! Of take the pay!
Of owning everything for one's own greed!

I am the farmer, bondsman to the soil.
I am the worker sold to the machine.
I am the Negro, servant to you all.
I am the people, humble, hungry, mean--
Hungry yet today despite the dream.
Beaten yet today--O, Pioneers!
I am the man who never got ahead,
The poorest worker bartered through the years.

Yet I'm the one who dreamt our basic dream
In the Old World while still a serf of kings,
Who dreamt a dream so strong, so brave, so true,
That even yet its mighty daring sings
In every brick and stone, in every furrow turned
That's made America the land it has become.
O, I'm the man who sailed those early seas
In search of what I meant to be my home--
For I'm the one who left dark Ireland's shore,
And Poland's plain, and England's grassy lea,
And torn from Black Africa's strand I came
To build a "homeland of the free."

The free?

Who said the free?  Not me?
Surely not me?  The millions on relief today?
The millions shot down when we strike?
The millions who have nothing for our pay?
For all the dreams we've dreamed
And all the songs we've sung
And all the hopes we've held
And all the flags we've hung,
The millions who have nothing for our pay--
Except the dream that's almost dead today.

O, let America be America again--
The land that never has been yet--
And yet must be--the land where every man is free.
The land that's mine--the poor man's, Indian's, Negro's, ME--
Who made America,
Whose sweat and blood, whose faith and pain,
Whose hand at the foundry, whose plow in the rain,
Must bring back our mighty dream again.

Sure, call me any ugly name you choose--
The steel of freedom does not stain.
From those who live like leeches on the people's lives,
We must take back our land again,
America!


O, yes,
I say it plain,
America never was America to me,
And yet I swear this oath--
America will be!

Out of the rack and ruin of our gangster death,
The rape and rot of graft, and stealth, and lies,
We, the people, must redeem
The land, the mines, the plants, the rivers.
The mountains and the endless plain--
All, all the stretch of these great green states--
And make America again!

Tuesday, July 03, 2012

Favorite Characters, Part 1

I have enjoyed several new series this season, but there was one that I had imagined starting to watch ... and then I just didn't have time. But I made some time this summer (when I should have been reading, that is true) ... in any case, the show is Grimm.

And, it's a weird and interesting show, but there is one character that I love. He is not necessarily the central character, but I find myself waiting impatiently for him to show up.  I am sure I am not the only one with a soft spot for Munroe.

I wait anxiously for the moment when Munroe is needed ... that is, when his expertise or personality becomes an essential part of any solution to the problem.  I love when he starts to talk about any topic even though the Nick character is getting irritated that Munroe can't just stick to the facts.  When he gets going on some arcane topic that makes his eyes light up, I am right there with him.

If my description of the character doesn't sell you, check out this article.

Let's be clear, though, I am sure the Grimm appeals to people on several different levels.  When the action scenes start, I look away ... not like I am afraid, just non-plussed, so it's the perfect time to check the recipe or email or whatever (yes, I only watch online).

So, if you haven't seen Grimm -- and you are sure it's not for you -- then, think again, and give it a try ... Munroe is a really cool character you might just learn to love.

Here is the actor talking about his character and the show:
In case the video is not showing up below, click here.

Monday, July 02, 2012

New Book You Should Read!

Tomorrow is my friend's new book release date!

If you are heading to the beach or want to pretend you are, then you need this perfect vacation read...

It is the 4th in the series ... so you can get all four!  And then the wait for book 5 won't seem quite so long.

They are also all available for your kindle.

Check out Juliet's site for more information.