Poetry Thursday

Let no man pull 
you so low 
as to hate him.
~Martin Luther King, Jr.

Poetry Thursday

You have no idea 
how hard I've looked 
for a gift to bring You. 
Nothing seemed right. 
What's the point 
of bringing gold 
to the gold mine, 
or water to the ocean. 
Everything I came up with 
was like taking spices 
to the Orient. 
It's no good 
giving my heart 
and my soul 
because you already 
have these. 
So I've brought 
you a mirror. 
Look at yourself 
and remember me. 
~ Rumi

not Poetry Thursday

American Ready Cut System Houses

 

Heather Derr-Smith

Your postcard said, Nothing like a little disaster to sort things out.

 

Blueprints, sketches, such perfect houses in the photograph on the              

front,
all the lines true and in harmony. I took it with me like a paper charm,

 

searching for home, hit the road, looking for the exact spot
of my birthright, down the rustling path of thistles and nettles,

 

under a leaden sky, in the place where God once lifted the home by its        

hair,
nothing left but the kitchen and the bathtub where we all hid. The                

supper table

 

picked up and carried to the county over and laid so gently down.

 

When I saw you last in the bar in Brooklyn, you told me to sing. But I          

couldn’t

 

even speak. I laid my head in your lap, drunk at two am and felt your          

hand
resting across my back, reluctant, unsure of what I wanted, but                    

knowing

 

it was a want too much for anyone to give in to, a halter
broke, some rip.

 

The skeletons of the trees are coming back to life now, sap like stars
risen again. Most anything torn can be mended. No real permanent            

damage.

 

The land where the house was

 

goes back to the plum-colored dusk, hooks and hoods of the hawks
perching in the Hemlocks, clouds and mounds of nebulae in the sky in        

the pitch night.

 

Frank Lloyd Wright said, nature will never fail you, though, I suppose        

it depends
on what you mean by fail. It’ll kill you for sure, Great Revelator.

 

You can hear the wilderness ad-libbing its prayers in the                                

whip-poor-will and the cypress,
in the percussion and boom of bittern in the bulrushes.

 

Dead is the mandible, alive the song, wrote Nabokov.

 

The bones of our houses, the house of our bones
dropped in a sudden blur of wind and wings,

 

but our voices still throb and palpitate somewhere, by some rapture,
in memory’s ear, in the fluttering pages, behind the stars.

 

I have a song now I want to sing to you, but you’re long gone.
When you said I’m here for you, was that a promise?

 

Overwhelm,

 

to bury or drown beneath a huge mass

 

Whelmen: to turn upside down

 

To turn over and over like a boat washed over and overset by a wave

 

To bring to ruin.

 

The end of one part of the world, a story that no longer has a witness.

 

But I’ll sing it to myself. I’ll sing it to the small moth,
the size of scarcely a word,

 

Ad libitum, according to my desire.

Poetry Thursday

not onions, but I got a lot of pumpkins

The Traveling Onion
Naomi Shihab Nye, 1952
When I think how far the onion has traveled
just to enter my stew today, I could kneel and praise
all small forgotten miracles,
crackly paper peeling on the drainboard,
pearly layers in smooth agreement,
the way the knife enters onion
and onion falls apart on the chopping block,
a history revealed.
And I would never scold the onion
for causing tears.
It is right that tears fall
for something small and forgotten.
How at meal, we sit to eat,
commenting on texture of meat or herbal aroma
but never on the translucence of onion,
now limp, now divided,
or its traditionally honorable career:
For the sake of others,
disappear.

Note included with the poem:
“It is believed that the onion originally came from India.
In Egypt it was an object of worship —
why I haven’t been able to find out.
From Egypt the onion entered Greece
and on to Italy, thence into all of Europe.”
— Better Living Cookbook

more pure joy

I prefer people in small packages. It is not always obvious to others why this is so. But the reality is, these small people provide the surest window into what it means to be present.

They feel whatever they are feeling, right now.

Emphatically, usually.

They even do boring better than any actors can approximate.

They are also especially good at experiencing joy.

They don't think about it, worry if they are deserving, wonder at if they will look silly or how others will react.

Although sometimes they do call for reactions, so maybe they care a little.

I am doing my best to learn from these little ones...
not just about experiencing the sensation of joy, but also the expression of it.

They are blessings.

pure joy

A couple of months ago, a friend asked me to her birthday celebration -- a bonfire on a remote beach on the new moon. When the day came, I almost bailed. I was tired. Depressed. Bereft, really, if you want to know the truth. But, I had made a promise, and I am nothing if not loyal to commitments I make to others. So I dragged my ass out of my apartment and drove the 40 miles over hill and dale to the remote beach chasing the setting sun.

A funny thing happened on that twisty turny road... I had a little moment.   As I was turning some corner, looking at the trees, watching the sun and wondering if I would make it there while there was still light, a thought popped in my head, "joy."  I looked around me, at all the beauty, and I realized what I needed more of in my life was joy.  Not just any joy, but pure joy.  I knew it because just seeing that beauty, I experienced pure joy.

As I write this, a single tear runs down my cheek, but it is not burning this time because joy engenders tears as much as pain does.

So I have been seeking expressions of pure joy -- whether mine or others.  Here's one. 

This is Dexter. I met him briefly on another drive to a remote beach.  When he saw new people, his first response was to pick up this huge buoy as though it were a ball and suggest we play with him.  Look at this marvelous ball I have found he seemed to be saying. 

Here are some other pictures of sights I found to be full of joy or that produced feelings of joy.

 The tiniest sand dollar I have ever found.

 The happy cows on the road to Point Reyes Light House.  It was really the tiny baby cows (yes I know there is a name for them), but I didn't snap a picture of them.

This tiny dog having a great time on a walk... and the one that I didn't snap a picture of ... his owner told me he waits patiently for the walk to the post office because at the end of waiting there is a treat.

It's the little things that bring us pure joy.

Poetry Thursday

White Rose

By Tom Pickard

you gave me a white rose   

put the lamp on the stove   

it caught fire

the I Ching said

thunder above the lake

lightning in Baker Street

switched on the cooker   

and blew a fuse

blue flash

you see

the whole experience   

is electric

Quote Thursday

A painful time 
in our life is 
what I call a 
“healing crisis.” 
We are letting go 
of something old 
and opening to 
something new.” 
- Shakti Gawain

Poetry Thursday, Thanksgiving Edition

Gratitude -- is not the mention 

Of a Tenderness, 

But its still appreciation 

Out of Plumb of Speech.

When the Sea return no Answer 

By the Line and Lead

Proves it there's no Sea, or rather 

A remoter Bed?


~Emily Dickinson

Perspective and Gifts from the Universe

A friend 

is one 

that knows you 

as you are, 

understands where 

you have been, 

accepts what 

you have become, 

and still, 

gently allows 

you to grow.

~Elbert Hubbard
Philosopher, Author, Publisher

[I saw this posted, and mis-attributed to Wm Shakespeare, and had to investigate.  The author's life story, and the number of quotes of his that we use in daily life are amazing. ]  

I had the opportunity to meet Bruno, pictured above, on my short jaunt into Chicago in August.  His life is worthy of a children's book.  Maybe someday I will get around to that one.  His life, and his owners, brought me some perspective at a challenging time.  When I see his little face, I remember how important it is to not judge a book by its cover.  I remember the power of love and how unexpectedly it can come - or maybe that it can come in unexpected packages.

We rarely have control of the gifts the universe will bestow.  The best we can try to do is be receptive when they land on our doorstep.  And, of course, to be thankful.
I am thankful! Still working to incorporate into my life all the gifts I received on that trip to Chicago.

Poetry Thursday

Love here on earth

Love beyond the grave

There are no roads

My love for you can't pave.
- T. Sachs

Happy birthday, sister

 The strands are all there ... 

to the memory, 

nothing is ever lost. 

~Eudora Welty

I got things to say...

...and do, but it is all still percolating.

I am going to just leave this here for you all:


I finally got around to listening to the whole episode that included this awesome song.

This song on repeat got me through the last thirty miles of my nearly 300 miles drive today.

There was a lot of weeping so I needed this strong song to remind me that we are made of resilience.

Come at me bro...

this is all I got

...for now.

I am regrouping and hope to be able to put my words down soon...

oh, and happy veterans' day

Poetry Thursday, back on track...

Faith is an oasis 

in the heart 

which will never 

be reached 

by the caravan 

of thinking.

~K. Gibran

The Sand and the Foam

Poetry Thursday sort of...

The pain, their loss, 
it's all I have left of them.
You think the grief 
will make you smaller inside
like your heart will collapse 
in on itself,
but it doesn't.
I feel spaces opening up 
inside of me
like a building with rooms 
I've never explored.
~spoken by Dolores on Westworld
not sure who wrote it for the robot or the character, but I like it.

Para los seres queridos...

We gathered to decorate Sergio's grave on Sunday.
This is before
-- a bag of supplies.
And eager hearts
with food and
energy and
love for Julie and Sergio.

It started shaping up with flowers and decorations.

Julie and I scoured a grocery store for many of Sergio's favorite things.

Alita was particularly intrigued by the process... I kept giving her jobs (and treats).

Alita helped give out paper and pens so we could all write Sergio private notes.

the final product... and closeups of the offerings...

Julie thanked everyone for coming, and Alita, Sara and Kathryn comforted Julie... it was heartbreaking and beautiful.

We burnt the notes as our delivery method.

I included my silent thoughts for all my loved ones who aren't with me anymore.

We miss you so much, Sergio ...

I owe you one...

The leaf of every tree 

brings a message 

from the unseen world. 

Look, 

every falling leaf 

is a blessing.
~ Rumi

Scenes from my life right now

I keep wanting to write about what's going in my life right now, but then I don't do it.  Not that there is really anything going on ... I haven't applied for more jobs, my current job is giving me less and less hours, I am picking up other gigs on the side, trying to outfit my apartment.

So those are lots of things that are actually happening and it is all my life.

But this is not what is going on for me right now.

A lot of what is going on is being sad, crying, grieving... sometimes to the point of paralysis, but other times just as a release.

I try to keep honoring this process, but I am getting scared about how long it will take ... particularly about how long my savings will allow me to follow the path before I need to just get a job, any job.

I am spending too much time in my space alone ... perhaps too much, maybe just right.

It means most of these pictures are scenes from the doorway of my aparment.

This one is detail on the rain we got a couple of weeks ago... this is the little lemon tree my friend bought me!

[Non sequitur, I want to name it.  I am feeling it is a "him" and the name that always pops in my head is Elroy.  Not sure why, but I haven't really committed to it, yet. Your comments are welcome.]

The view from my apartment is really gorgeous... sunny or cloudy...

 even rainy and with ominous clouds threatening...

And I have been recording the animal visitors...

I guess the good news is that I have been getting out more this past week ... today actually marks day 7 of exercising out of doors ... next picture scenes from my life will reflect that change.

And maybe I will even start writing regularly again ... I can't predict.